How to make it stop?

How to make it stop?

how? how? how?

How do i stop it? all the rantings of my heart? all the feelings that are burning inside me?
How do i stop myself from needing you? how do i stop myself from wanting you?
How do i convince myself that you are not here anymore?
How do i make myself believe that it is going to be okay?
How do i stop this pain?
How to tell the heart not to feel?
How do i stop the messed up brain of mine to stop thinking about you?
How do i stop thinking about us?

Where are you?

I want someone i can be my real self with...all the little kiddish thoughts i have been holding up inside me...everyday i feel a constant struggle in my heart...for being who this world wants me to see and who i really want to be...
I want someone who can love me for sitting quietly, saying nothing beside the lake in the dark for hours
I want someone to love me when i get all over-excited seeing cotton candy or just a mere thought of me riding a bicycle give me happiness
I want someone who can see that i can be real foolish all the time...but still love me for me...